Dark Thoughts

Why I was I born?
Ungrateful that I live.
Is this a better sum?
That I bear this leaves
And breath this air


Tired and on the edge
Worn and on a thread
Maybe life had no meaning afterall
As this myth stands so tall

Is the trouble worth it?
This torment for food I dare not eat
Why the fight?
Why the malice?
Why the hate?

Where is the grace that we preached?
Where is the mercy that triumphs?
Has forgiveness become a cheat?
Has love taken another friend

I'm looking for reasons
To tow the line I shouldn't
To pull the plug and cease the seasons
The voice is loud and then faint
And depression is in it's wake

Many have fallen thus
We called them weak
We called them selfish coz they closed doors
We called them freaks

Standing in the same valley
With dark clouds and no silver lining
I think I now understand that alley
How a man now counts it no value
To breath the air of this planet

For he has been shot down
By love gone south
By love stained

Where is the hope?
I can't see
Where is tomorrow?
I can't walk
Where is the dream?
I can't sleep

I want the real deal
I want truth
I want light
I want God
I need God!

melchi

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